Ek pal ka sath phir.. Duriyaan..

Chalta raha main (akele) in.. raahon mein
Tanha raha main is.. duniya mein..
Ek pal ka saath phir ..duriyaan
Aankhon mein tu ya aasun hai..

Ek pal ka saath phir ..duriyaan
Dil ne kiya yeh jo intezaar
Kya yehi hai.. Yehi hai pyaar?

Tune pukara ..main chala aaya
Tujh bin mera.. Jiya na bhaya..
Main hoon..tu hai.. ya tera saya..
Tujh se hi maine khud ko paaya..

Ek pal ka saath phir ..duriyaan
Dil ne kiya yeh jo intezaar
Kya yehi hai.. Yehi hai pyaar?

Phir se tanha hua jo main
Tujhe paa kar phir khoya maine..
Sath jo tune mera nibhaya
Tune mujhe jeena sikhaya

Ek pal ka saath phir ..duriyaan
Dil ne kiya yeh jo intezaar
Kya yehi hai.. Yehi hai pyaar?

Fifth day..

the fire in my heart is still burning
my love for you is as ever ascending..
need you in my arms at this very moment
need you to say that you are missing me every second

days have passed, so ll this moment
my nose is still craving for the smell of your scent..
the eyes are burning and there are no tears to soothe..
i wonder why you havent called, was my love so damn crude?

the memories you left behind have made me worse..
hugs and kisses have casted their curse
still craving for your gentle touch
your breath on my neck, your staring into my eyes
the beating of your heart with mine
you and me together.. without you i cannot survive..

my love for you is pure, this song is the token
wish i could sing it for you,ah! the guitar stings are broken..
but the melody is still there
the lyrics are incomplete
the feeling is still there
need you to interpret the meaning..

so at the end of the fifth day
i am still waiting to get a glimpse
waiting at the door of your heart

so at the end of the fifth day
i'm searching for your face
waiting till we'll never be apart

5th day 1.mp3

Post-FREE WHEEL Realizations

Hope you have read the post on FREE WHEEL.Though I have not been able to realize whether the entire bicycle is GOD or only the rear wheel, I've reached many other conclusions.
Probably everything is GOD. Everything around us is GOD. Everything we do is nothing but manifestation of GOD. We must be good to everything around us-both animate and inanimate. Though "good" is a relative term, I now realize that our faith is what defines "good" and "bad". In this relative word, each action of ours will be judged from the relative perspective of the one who is experiencing. (Do you think a Jehadi will be tried on the Day of Judgement for having done wrong deeds? He had no control over the environmental factors that carved his faith!)
I now believe that GOD is experimenting with us. He probably wants to test our behaviour under all the circumstances. Probably we are subjects of an experiment for the next higher being. Call this Evolution! This evolution complies by the rules set by Him. The same laws that bind this universe. On further contemplation I realized that this should be the law of balance.(Islam speaks of balance in life-spiritual and worldly.)
Balance!!! what would be the reference point? Let it be zero for every entity at its birth. Dont be stupid! What about the less fortunate and those with disabilities? Everybody is Equal!! Whether you have disabilities or not, in the eyes of GOD you are just an entity being experimented upon.(Probably GOD has very lil emotion) ALL the "newly born" entity(== GOD, discussed later) start at the same reference point. The initial conditions are different, god wants to try all the possibilities. When all the possibilities ve exhausted, we would probably see the Judgement day. The experiment is more complex than an artificial-life simulation on a computer. We have free will, we can choose our paths. Had we been programmed(not talking abt rules but decisions) we would not have existed. Is He Dreaming?? Maybe! Probably we all are just a part of His imagination. Just like i can dream of having a dinner with you and make you eat/drink whatever i want you to have disregarding your choice. In this sense freewill will cease to exist. Does the "YOU" in my mind have a conscience?? NO! Can I be two people at the same time? NO (as of now). I now want to create a world inside my brain. Be a GOD myself. Recursively create entities one inside the other and see how they interact with each other. This may not be possible within the capacity of my brain unfortunately but the concept is feasible. Can I create a creature within my world of imagination, who can create a similar world for himself? That creature stays stuck there until I set rules to decide when its world will come to an end. I don't know who I am ... but I am trying to conceptualize the whole universe as ONE must have done it. Stupidity...

FREE WHEEL

i came across an interesting analogy last night. We all know that the bicycle is powered by the rear wheel and the momentum produced makes the front wheel to roll forward. The front wheel is also called the Free Wheel, which is analogous to our consciousness. Though powered by the rear wheel (the Almighty), the front wheel(our consciousness) decides the direction. Without the power developed by the rear wheel the front wheel cannot move ahead.

Indeed everything is this world is powered by the GOD!

In another analogy, the solar system may be compared to the GOD-Man interaction. All the planets move around the Sun in a circular orbit because of the Sun's gravitational pull. The planets have evolved from the Sun and tend to rotate around it. In the same way, we have evolved from GOD and we are powered by GOD. We are the planets and the force that binds us to GOD is Faith.

Without him our existence has no meaning.
Without him we cannot do anything.
Without him we ll get lost in this dark universe.
To him we shall return!

SOMETIMES

sometimes i feel lonely
sometimes i feel scared
sometimes i just lie in there and wonder
if you really care..

sometimes i go crazy
try to get you out of my head
sometimes i just do that
and wish i was dead

sometimes you wouldnt listen
sometimes you would beg
sometimes you act like i dont exist for
you in anyway

sometimes you are the only hope
and want you to know that
sometimes you are the only hole
in which i would like to fall

sometimes i really care for you..
sometimes i do..

life is too short..

this post is in response to the gtalk status message set by akash.agrawal2000 (my senior from college)

life is too short..

When I first read this statement i couldnt make out what it exactly meant. According to me there can two possible meanings..We can consider the "shortness" of life either in the time domain or in space domain. I suppose your view is restricted to the former..but i think both are sort of equivalent and would like to give the following argument to support my statement.

By 'shortness' of time you mean that you have very little time to do
things you want to do in your life span, in other words you want to be
a part of this world for a longer period of time(of course for both
psychological and physical reasons).

Now consider the space domain..as you would agree our reach in space
(around us) is rather limited...equivalent to our lifetime which is
nothing but a small fragment in the entire timeline of the
universe..so by analogy space:universe::lifetime:total

-time.

Now i propose that exploring the space is equivalent. to exploring the
time.This seems a feasible assumption...but there is one
difference..exploring space would lead to exploring the
past(time)..and exploring time would imply exploring future(space).
space and time are therefore the two dimensions in which we can
explore the world..

say at any time t=T the universe space has a particular spatial
characteristic. now let the time freeze at this particular moment
forever. now we start exploring space starting at point x. we know
that when we explore space ..the further we go away from the initial
point x ..the space that we observe becomes older and older. allowing
us to look into the past.

now giving a similar treatment to the second case. when we keep space
constant and allow time to flow..we would be able to observe a
limited amount of space throughout..starting from the present to the
future.

Coming back to "life" ;-) ..I am now inquisitive about what is
expected from us in this life? can we explore the space ?can we
explore time only?can we explore both?

Finally they both appear to be sides of the same coin..but of course
facing in the opposite directions.


definitions:

exploring space: using your senses to register the details of the
surrounding space in your brain (without linking it with the details
of that particular space at a previous instance)

exploring time: using your senses to link the events occuring in a
confined space.